Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Without A Net

     There is a certain kind of gluttonous insanity to writing. We fill up blank pages with little bits of ourselves, laying them out on the torture tables of opinion and professional dissection. We write because the words strain at the interior of our skulls, fighting for release into the world. The stories will not be denied. They riot like the Cockney/French insanity of Les Mis. Yes, Gavroche, I hear you singing! Now, shut up and let me finish my blog. Geesh! We write and hold on to the whipping post, preparing our backs for the flaying we know must come for the writing to improve. 
     We soothe ourselves with the gentle salve of our friends praise. Their intentions override their taste and they rave about our wonderful talent. Our belief that we are that good rises like a balloon too daunting for a toddlers grip. Not to worry, it is swiftly pummeled down by our editors, proofreaders, and the multitude of rejection letters in our inboxes. 
     The worst of these letters are the form returns. You are not even good enough for me to waste my time responding to you. Continue flipping burgers and bother me no more. Of course, this isn't the actual meaning most of the time. Keep repeating that to yourself. The fact is, I would rather see red ink. I would rather someone tell me what they did not like than to shoo me away. I cannot improve on the unknown need.  
     So we climb to the heights of the big top. We step out on the platform, compelled. The bar swings toward us and we fly through the air, pitching, querying, hoping... Without a net. Here's hoping that we all find an agent or publishing house willing to catch us before we flip. 

Friday, October 18, 2013

Do All The Things!

Do you ever step back, look at your calender and all of the things on your "to-do" list and think... where is my straight jacket? A fabric and buckle forced self-hug sounds appropriate right now. Seriously.
My list looks something like this right now:
  1. Find an agent and/or publisher for Elhannan, Book 1 of the M'Shar Series
  2. Continue writing book 2 of the series (named, but said name unreleased to the public)
  3. Crochet 2 infinity scarves for dear friends with scarf-less necks. (Because scarves are hugs you take with you all day.)
  4. Assemble and sew signature quilt from another friend's birthday party.
  5. Assemble and sew quilt for youngest daughter's Christmas gift.
  6. Home school my oldest child. (Gosh, I am sounding more like a pioneer woman as this list grows...)
  7. Run the social media aspect of my Hubby's election campaign. (Maybe this redeems my cool factor?)
  8. Be an active part in said campaign by going to events and making myself available to the public at a moments notice.
  9. Prepare for my girls' dance studio's production of The Nutcracker, in which I am the stage director and Clara's mom. (Did I mention that all of my little family is in this? Yeah. Exciting and very, very busy.)
  10. Manage to keep my family fed, clothed, and my house in some sort of order... Oh, and feed the dog! Can't forget that! (Have you seen my sanity? I know it was here a minute ago.)
It goes on and on and I add to it constantly. But the honest truth is, I love it. I try to fill my life up with things that power me through their beauty and/or importance. Moments are not given to us to just to drift along and scatter into dust. Time is given to be seized and shaped and fashioned into something lasting. Make memories, create something from a craft that is dying away in this generation video zombies, dive into another person's life and help them to catalyze change for the better. Do something that will leave your imprint on this world when you are gone from it. None of us are promised another moment. Be crazy, embrace the busy, and do everything. 

Friday, October 4, 2013

Seolta's Tales: The Great Divide

     "Come, one and all!" Seolta moved slowly through the crowded streets, arms outstretched to draw in any who would hear. "The K'darin clan of the K'taran gypsies born out of the great M'Shar people have come to your town to share stories and songs that will woo, excite, and amaze! Follow me!"
     Like ants to an apple core, the people shift at his voice. They trail behind him as his hawking turns into song. He leads them all to a large courtyard typically reserved for public executions and punishments. The blood stained stage at the center is decked in multi-colored ribbon and branches full of autumn-hued leaves to ward off any gruesome association. Seolta's song melds into the larger tune that rises from the men and women playing their instruments upon the stage. The cheerful, beckoning melody calls the crowd onward, making their feet dance with every step. Once all are gathered close, Seolta takes his place before the players. The music rises to a sweeping crescendo, then falls to silence.
     The crowd stands in awestruck anticipation. The gypsy shows are known far and wide as a thing not to be missed.The Great Seolta allows the silence to settle. He offers a gentle smile and lifts his hands to softly pat at the air.
     "Sit, my friends. Take your places upon the grass and I will tell you a tale of sorrow and death... of tragedy and triumph. Open your ears, and your hearts, to a story... a true tale from the history of the M'Shar... The Account of the Great Divide!" Each person settles in quietly as Seolta's dark haired daughter brings out his chair. He perches upon the edge of the seat, and adjusts his waistcoat. His eyes grow sharp as he looks to the far horizon.
     "Once, very long ago, our world, Froa, was a place of peace. Then, the Destruction came and brought in war, famine, sickness, and darkness to the hearts of men. Much was lost. The M'Shar people withdrew to the Wastelands of the west to gather beneath the protection of the holy Sagart priesthood there. This was their only hope of protection for, as you all know, the M'Shar follow the Way and cannot fight under any circumstances. The idea was good, in theory, yet the Sagart were fighting their own battles. Many of the elders, along with their dragons, had disappeared and a new threat, the Dragonlords, had arisen to tax their resources even further." The crowd collectively gasps at the mention of the Dragonlords. Several superstitiously cross their chests with the first three fingers of their left hand to ward off evil. Seolta nods and lowers his eyes in empathy before continuing.
     "Aye. It was a hard, cold time. And it was in those days that Niress, a young M'Shar herdsman, lived. His family lived in the lush, green land at the eastern feet of the Oburun Mountains along the border here in Coremanda. They resisted the call to the Wastelands because Niress' father worried there would not be enough grazing land for his shadar herd. He held out as long as could be born, but the time had come, and the family began their journey.
     Niress' father, mother, little sister, and their white flocked herd traveled the length of the land, skirting the river as they made their way to the wide bridge that leads into Hamarea. They didn't realize that in so doing, they had gained the attention of a raiding party of a Baerlonian tribe. In the dark of night, two of the raiders crossed the river by boat, crept along the shore and into Niress' camp. The shadar were carried off first.
     Three at a time, they ferried the gentle beasts across the water until none were left. This would have been enough to feed their tribe for many years, and likely an act that would have gone unpunished. However, one of the raiders had a much darker purpose to his coming. He wanted a bride. Niress' sister, Neela, had lived only nine years by that time, yet his desire was upon her. The evil-hearted raider stole into the family tent and took the girl.
     The next morning, the family awoke to their greatest sorrow. The mother and father clung to each other and wailed their pain to Uan's throne, begging for strength and restoration. Niress did not wail. His heart boiled an unquenchable anger that spurred him to action. He tracked the raiders down to the shore. Across the wide water, he saw their boat, but no sign of them. He had never swam before, but, in his rage, he flung himself into the river and flailed with all his might until he made it to the other side. His body sore and weary from the effort, he pulled himself up to rest in the shadow of the boat. It was then that he heard the whimpering.
     His sister's little body lay broken and bloody within the hull. She had been left for dead. He crawled in beside her and held her to him. She curled into him like a frightened lamb and told him, with her last breaths, of what they had done to her. He vowed to avenge her abuse and death. He honored her with a funeral pyre and then, weaponless, set out to fulfill his quest.
     The raiders made camp within a copse of trees in the valley a short distance from the river. They never had a thought that the peaceful M'Shar would seek revenge, so, as night fell, they drank and reveled in the victory of the raid and the bit of fun they had at the girl's expense. They laughed at her brave refusal of their advances and her pleading cries for them to stop. She would not have made for a good bride, but at least she had been some entertainment. Niress, crouched behind a tree at the edge of their camp and waited.
     One by one, the drunken raiders fell asleep and Niress crept out of the shadows. Using one of their own long knives, he kills each one in turn, slitting their throats as if they were shadar to be slaughtered. Then, to warn off any retribution, he hung them from the trees by their feet and made the mark of the M'Shar upon the skin of their stomachs.
     Niress returned to his family with the boat Neela died in. He told his father of all that happened and gave the boat to him. Fear, anger, and shame mingled in the older man and he could make no clear decision. He carried the boat on his back and led the way to the Wastelands without a word. Niress' mother begged and pleaded with her husband, but he would not speak. She clung to her son and kissed his face and thanked him, but she feared the repercussions of his going against the Way.
      Eventually, the broken family arrived at the gate into the Wastelands. Niress' father called the elders of the clans to meeting and held his son out before him as he told the tale. Niress was given a choice.  Admit that his actions were wrong and do penance, or the exile of living death would be upon him as one who departed from the Way.
     Niress recalled his sister's face and stood tall amid the people. His voice was unwavering as he spoke the words. 'Consider me as the dead, if you must. I avenged my sister out of love for her and I would do the same again. We live in dangerous times and some one must be willing to protect the M'Shar when the Sagart cannot. I will be that someone... for Neela... for you all, even if I must stand alone!'
     With that, the M'Shar stood and turned their backs toward the young man. His mother wailed in sorrow, but was led away. He entered, alone into exile.  Yet, he did not leave the Wastelands. In memory of his sister's sacrifice, he took up the boat his father had carried, made a long bow from its wood, and sat vigil at the gate for any that would come to cause harm to the M'Shar within. In the years that followed, many joined his cause, accepting the exile and turning from the Way to protect or avenge their people. In time, the M'Shar of the Way named themselves the Tuatha M'Shar, or true M'Shar, to more completely separate themselves from the warrior sect that grew daily. The separation still exists to this day."

Friday, September 27, 2013

Work & Cookies: The Aftermath of a Lesson

     Did you know that the recommended word count for a query is around 300 words? 300. That is it. And the vast majority of those words should be about your book. Not you as a writer, not bonding with the agent (although this part is reeeeeeeeally important), not your marketing platform, and not (seriously, don't do this) your possible pitches for other books you may have hanging on the line if they don't fall in love with what you are pitching now.
     That was just one of the amazingly helpful tidbits I received on a live video conference with publishing and start up guru Kathy Ver Eecke last night. If you are a writer and not getting her free emails and video blogs, do it. She is funny and smart. I like those qualities in a teacher.
     Armed with my newly gained knowledge, I am heading back into the fray, giving my query letter a few of the little tweaks it needs... and completely rewriting my synopsis. I had read that the synopsis should be a dry run straight through the book without fluff or garnish. Kathy says no. Keep it short and sweet, be cautious not to put unneeded info in, but tell it like the story it is. She also gave a bit of what I would call controversial advice. When asked whether or not to give the ending away in the synopsis, she answered... no!
     Ok, I know all you writerly folks may have just fallen out of your swivel chairs, but chill and listen. She related that the whole point of the synopsis is for the agent or publisher to see that you know your story. That you know how to pace it to hold attention, and that you know how to end it well. You can give away the ending completely. It won't hurt you to do it that way. It's tradition, after all! However, bringing the reader right up to the plunging drop of finality and then just hinting at what is waiting below builds a lingering desire to know more.
     So, heads down, pens up, let's get writing!

To accompany us as we work, let's have some cookies! Here's one of my many favorites:

5 Layer Cookie
1 stick butter
Enough graham cracker crumbs to cover the butter
2 cans sweetened condensed milk
1 bag peanut butter chips
1 bag semi-sweet chocolate chips

Melt your butter in a 9X13" pan. Top with the next four ingredients, layered as listed. Do not stir. Pop it in the oven at 350 deg. for about 30 minutes or until everything is melty and bubbly and fabulous. Now sit back, relax, and enjoy the richest thing since Bill Gates' bank account.

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Seolta's Stories: The Sgaith

     The Great Seolta plunges his bare feet into the cold water and lays back upon the grass. The summer heat is a little more bearable here by the river, and the gypsy children are taking full advantage. He laughs as he witnesses two of the little girls teetering nervously at the edge. Splash! He knew they wouldn't stay dry long. Closing his eyes, he lets the sound of the water and the children wash over him. The women nearby are doing the laundry and singing. Here, in this moment, he can almost forget anything that is not happiness and peace.
     Lost in his reverie, he does not hear the pattering of a small pair of very wet feet until it is too late. Elhannan, his grandson, flops onto his lap and wraps his soaking wet arms around his neck. 
     "Papan? Are you sleepy?" The boy asks.
     "Oh, no, El. I was just thinking of how nice it would be to get wet and cool off. It seems you have granted my wish!" The old man winks as the boy leans back to study his face. 
     "I didn't know you were wishing... I just wanted to hear a story!" 
     "Well, let me see. Do you recall the story of the Gaidheal and the first Sgaith?"
The little boy shakes his head and pulls himself off of his grandfather's lap to settle comfortably on the ground beside him. Seolta lifts himself onto his elbow and points a gnarled finger toward the northwestern sky just over the boy's shoulder. 
     "Long, long ago... but not very long after the first dragon's eggs hatched, a beautiful, magical creature came to the holy city of Rhuidean. It arrived on the clearest night of the fullest moon on the middle-most day of Uanfast... which everyone knows is the coldest day of the year, and the only day that it can snow in the Wastelands. 
     On this night, there was no snow, and no clans camping near to herald the creature's arrival. It soared in on large wings of constantly shifting color, and landed near the fountain in the courtyard. The creature, not much larger than a Hamarean horse, settled down upon the grass like an overgrown kitten. And a cat of sorts it was... for it had the body of a cat, but one grown lithe, strong, and fierce. It's white tail swished about like that of a well-pleased cat, too. However, this was not a tail you would wish to grab, for at it's tip sat a hard, golden bulb with a long and wicked looking stinger. It's golden paws kneaded at the ground as it began to fall asleep, and its claws left long trenches in their wake. A thick, flowing mane settled around the creature's huge, cat-like head, giving it a most regal appearance as it dozed.  The sound of it's breathing was like distant thunder. 
     Just as the sun was thrusting itself over the edge of the world, Maera, one of the Gaidheal, awoke from a dream and could not seem to return to sleeping. After several tosses and turns, she finally decided to go for a walk in the courtyard. Can you imagine her surprise at seeing this amazing animal sleeping by the fountain there? What should she do? Should she run and wake the others? No, it may leave and then they might say she were dream walking. Should she try to frighten it away? No... there was something kind and gentle about its face that made her feel that it was no threat. So she spoke to it. 
     Gathering up her courage, she leaned in a little closer and, in her most calm and soothing voice, she greeted the animal. It raised its head and blinked its many-hued eyes.
     'Yes. You will do nicely.' It said. This was a very odd thing to say after just having met someone, and Maera was not sure that she felt at all comfortable with whatever it meant. She froze.
'Do not be afraid now. You have been brave enough to greet me, and I have traveled a very long distance to find aid. Will you be brave enough to help me?" The creature's voice rumbled lower than the thunder of its breath, but it sounded intelligent and kind. Maera nodded and, trembling, stepped closer.
     'Tell me, dear creature, what can I do to help you? I will do what I can.'
The beast smiled, if you can call it that, and lowered his head. 'I have something terribly sharp and irritating under my mane upon the back of my neck. I have no way of reaching it, and I have found no one willing to help me do so. Are you willing to climb upon my back and remove this thing?'
     Meara nodded. The thought that he could be tricking her into coming closer just to eat her or carry her off threatened to surface as she laid her hand on his neck, but she pushed it away. She had to help. Using his bent front leg as a step stool, she climbed onto his back. His mane was even more dense than she had thought. At once, the task of finding some small burr within that mass seemed quite daunting. But, Meara did not give up. She plunged her hands under the hair and immediately found the thing that had been hurting the creature, a thickly wound blackberry bramble branch.
'Here it is! Oh, and you are bleeding... Let me take care of that. I will be right back.' She dismounted and ran to the house of apothecary, returning with salve and bandages. Gone now was any thought of fear or timidity.  She was helping a friend. 
     She finished her work and stepped back to the ground. The creature thanked her graciously and swore that he and any of his kind that came after would always stand with her kind in friendship. He had no name and knew of none other like himself, so she gave his kind the name Sgaith, a word that means "wing" in the ancient language. His own name became Spion, or Thorn, as we would say today, to remind them of the day they met and the bond that was forged."

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Catching Up

Life has been insanely busy lately. The Hubby is running for judge and the kids are back in school, leaving me in a near constant state of motion. This blog, and my writing, has suffered neglect because neither can scream at me to come and spend time with them. Everything else screams. Writing whispers. It beckons me to hide away somewhere behind a locked door with nothing but my cup of coffee and my imagination. It irritates. If you ever see me grumbly and agitated, ask if I've had the chance to sit down and write lately. Ask the question when I am free of anything sharp or large and blunt... and preferably from across the room. It will be safer for you. 

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

September 11

Disbelief, shock, fear, anger, patriotism, faith...
Those were the emotions that swirled in my heart and mind on this day in 2001. They beat about inside my chest still today as I look back on the anniversary of that amazing tragedy. This blog is intended to be a place to talk about my writing, being published, and the occasional recipe or other fun glimpse into who I am and how that affects my writing, so I will not get political here. However, I cannot allow this day to pass without expressing myself on this subject.
The actions on that day... the actions on this day last year... and the fact that there is a Muslim march taking place in our capitol on this day (THIS DAY) of this year, leave me raw. These are hateful acts. Where is the human decency? Where is the sanctity of life? Where is thoughtful reasoning and consideration of others? It is all blinded by hate. It is so hard not to get caught in the grip of it... not to desire blood for blood. I fight those feelings every year at this time, and I have not been at the epicenter of any of these actions. I have only played witness. I have only seen human beings acting like mindless, ravenous wolves rending the sheep. It sickens me and makes the warrior blood within me boil. As a mother, though, it breaks my heart for everyone involved... because I imagine the brokenness it takes for a person to get to the place that would allow you to commit those horrendous acts against another human... and I know the deep pain of feeling that something has been violently ripped away from you. So, as a Christian, I fight toward forgiveness and love. And I pray. I pray for every heart and body and home injured by this conflict. I pray for our world, our countries, our leaders, our people. I pray for peace and understanding. I pray for healing. Join me.

Friday, September 6, 2013

Seolta's Stories: The First Dragon

I have decided to add in a new element to my blog. I will now, occasionally, post a short story taken from the history of Froa, the planet where the M'Shar series takes place. Feel free to comment on any of the stories or request stories for me to tell at anytime. These stories will all be told by the Great Seolta. He is the grandfather of the first book's title character, Elhannan, and the last great storyteller and historian of his people. So, without further ado... The First Dragon.

     "Come now little ones! Gather around your Seolta and hear the history of our people." The old man adjusts his waistcoat and places his chair closer to the fire. The golden light of the flames dance upon the walls of the gypsy wagons, making the open field feel like a cozy room. The last child to join the group toddles over and touches his knee.
     "Papan, lap! Dragons, Papan, dragons!" Seolta lifts the child and cradles him close.
     "Do you wish to hear of dragons, Elhannan?" His question ignites an affirmative eruption from all of the children. A brilliant smile illuminates his coarse, but kind face in response. "Very well. So it shall be. Calm now, sit, and we shall begin."
     True to his decades as a story teller, the aging historian allows silence to fully settle upon the scene. He runs a hand through his silvering hair and narrows his dark eyes as if recalling a faint memory. The children all lean in closer, subconsciously pushing all of their will and energy toward him in joint effort to bring the story out. Sighing, at long last, and raising his hand out over the crowd of shining, dirty faces, he begins to weave his tale.
    "When our world, Froa, was brand new, and Uan's work of creation complete, all people lived peacefully together on the continent under the kind and gentle guidance of the Cumhnant. The priests, known as the Sagart, and the now long extinct priestess, or Gaidheal, taught all people from the knowledge and wisdom given to them by Uan himself. The world was happy and full of goodness. There was always plenty of rain, and sunshine, and food to eat. It was to this world that the first dragon was born.
     Elhannan, the ancient Sagart after whom my grandson is named, found the egg on the beach far below the cliffs behind the holy city of Rhuidean. He had been looking out to the water from above when the thing had caught his eye. At first, he believed it to be some enormous jewel tossed up from the sea. It glistened and glowed from within in a shade of blue and green that could hardly be described by my common tongue. There were no steps to the sand at that time, so the priest gathered up ropes, tied them to a stake he drove into the ground, and climbed carefully down to the treasure below.
    It was the same shape as any other egg you would imagine, and aside from the glowing and the color and the size, it was exactly what you would think an egg to be. Elhannan, recognizing that it was indeed an egg, then began searching the cliff line of the cove for a nest... or very large mother... to return the unborn offspring to its rightful place. Though he searched until the sun began to set, climbing about the rocks like a spider, he could find no trace of anything or anyone that might belong to the egg.  He knew he could not abandon the helpless creature within, so he decided to take it back with him to the city above and care for it until it hatched and could care for itself.
    However, the moment he placed his bare hands upon the shell of the egg, an amazing thing happened! A surging of energy flowed through him and latched him to the egg. His hearing increased to the point that he could hear not only the beating of the heart within the egg, but also the speech of the people walking around above him. His vision blurred, but only for a moment. He squeezed his eyes shut. When he opened them again, he staggered and fell to his knees. He could see every stone and pebble, he could count the feathers on a gull that flew high among the clouds. 'What is happening to me?' He asked aloud. From inside the egg, a small, metallic voice entered his mind.
     'We are becoming one. We will never be separated, not even in death. We are the first. We are the gift and the gifted.'
    After what seemed an eternity to Elhannan, the energy released him and he became comfortable enough in his new abilities to strap the egg to himself and climb back up the cliff. He shared what had happened with the Cumhnant immediately and all agreed that this was a gift from Uan to be honored and cared for. They designed and began work on a new Dragon Gate at the rear of the city, complete with stalls for the care and keeping of young, a well for water, and multiple drains that could send waste out to the cliffs and the sea.
     When the time came for the hatchling to be born, Elhannan brought the egg out and placed it on a great stage for all to see. A thousand candles were lit around the stage and a grand feast was prepared, as people gathered from every part of the continent to witness the momentous birth. He stayed with the egg, night and day, never leaving it once the first shudders began. He could hear the young one's egg tooth scraping and tapping against the interior. The anticipation thudded in his chest until he felt he would come apart and fall into nothingness.
     For two days and nights, the process wore on. Elhannan grew weary. As the dawn approached, the hatchling, with one last, valiant effort, slammed his head upward against the shell and... crack... crack... CRACK! It was free! Those that were set for the watch awakened the crowds. Its tender, blue scales shimmered in the candlelight. Kicking away the remnants of shell, it spread elegant wings skyward and sat back upon already muscled haunches. Elhannan drew near. The dragon nuzzled his torso with its head, then, blinking in the light, gazed up at him. Its eyes were the same deep, indescribable shade that its shell had been. As the people joined the scene, the priest and his dragon embraced.
     'What shall I call you?' He asked. The answer came in the same way as before... as a sound in his mind that only he could hear.
     'I am Cheadcheann, the first one.'
     From that day on, Elhannan and Cheadcheann were inseparable. They had many adventures and grew in knowledge and wisdom together. All that they learned, they shared with others. When they were both exceptionally old and ready to pass from this world into the next, they made arrangements to have themselves lowered back down to the same spot on the beach below the cliffs were they had first met. There they lay close together for a day and a night. At last, when dawn came and burst upon the sky like a spilling of honey and rose water, they died. Their final breaths mingled and drifted away as their bodies fell into a sparkling dust that scattered upon the next passing wind. In the place where Cheadcheann had lain, five shimmering, glowing eggs sat perched in the sand."

Monday, September 2, 2013

The Waiting Is The Hardest Part

Tick... Tick... Tick...
Every morning I have a routine. I wake up, grab my phone, and check my email. I am looking for one thing in particular. I scan quickly past any and every thing that is not that one thing. I am searching for a response from one of the few agents I have queried regarding my manuscript. Many blogs and advice columns I have read suggest stopping at nothing short of flooding the market with queries. The idea has merit, like chumming the water for a shark sighting, but I prefer to be a bit more methodical. I am working my way through specific agents who seem to be looking for my specific genre, are rep'ing books I respect or have them listed as books they also enjoy, and who have a social media or blog presence that reveals a character or humor I can relate to. At this time, I only have around ten queries out there. I have received two rejections (form type, both), and I am hunting often to find the next person to add to my list. If you are that person, or know that person, give me a heads up. I want to find the right agent for my manuscript and myself. I don't just want the deal. I want someone who I can relate to that will really care about the work and help me to make it the best it can be. So, I wait.
While I wait, I work, because I hate to wait. I am one of those people that just has to be doing something all of the time. One look at my craft room will tell you that. I am normally in the middle of several projects at any given time. Quilting, painting, cooking, floral arrangement, wreath making, dollhouse building, etc.... And the beat goes on... and the beat goes on. All of these little distractions keep my brain from burning out and give me a tactile place to go when I'm stuck on a particular scene in book 2. Yes, you can add another thing to add to that list of stuff I'm doing. Book 2 is the follow up to Elhannan, the novel manuscript I am seeking publishing for now. These characters, the world I've built, and the stories blooming there are constantly on my mind. Driving to work the other day, I found myself hashing out a conversation between two main characters and doing a mental storyboard to lay the scene out perfectly. I needed to find something useful to do with my mind. (Driving and waiting are very similar... too similar. I speed and drive defensively. A lot. Seriously, those handles on the passenger side and in the back seat were created solely for the frightened people who ride with me.)
My Granny Rose told me "patience is a virtue" so many times when I was young. Each time I find myself overwhelmed with the tedious annoyance that prickles under my skin while I wait, I can see her sweet, soft, wrinkled face looking down at me trying not to smile as she says those words. Bless her. I just don't see that particular virtue ever pertaining to me.

Monday, August 26, 2013

Tough Love and Tuscan Soup

Let me open by saying that this is an odd topic. We will just get that right out on the table so that I know that you know that I know that I am a little crazy, thereby proving that I am mostly sane. Here goes... confession... I am emotionally bonded with my characters. Let the judging begin. Go ahead! Taunt me like that wacky, cow-throwing, "French" guy in Monty Python and the Search for the Holy Grail. (If you haven't seen that old classic, stop reading and go watch it. With friends. NOW.)
Look, I know it is a bad idea. If you are too attached, you can't hurt them and put them through the turmoil necessary to make for a really engrossing tale, right? You can't receive constructive criticism and make necessary changes! I've read all the blogs. I know the general consensus. Still, there I go... loving them like my own children. Exactly like my children. My sometimes naughty and needing lessons to deepen their character children. My dirty faced, ragamuffin, go to your room before I murder you children... that I adore and only want the very best for. Honestly. (You're judging again. I can feel it.)
I love my babies. But, I love them enough to be truthful regarding their faults and weaknesses as well as the amazing talents and strengths they possess. I love them enough to let them work things out for themselves and learn hard lessons that will grow them into outstanding people who have lived full and fulfilling lives. I feel much the same about my characters. The main difference between the two is that the literary babies have (hopefully) more extreme circumstances, thus calling for more extreme situations in which to grow and become that which they are intended to be. No one is ever safe in my books... just as no one is ever truly safe in this life.

Now after that warm and squishy post, have some soup to comfort you. This is another of my often asked for recipes... my take on Olive Garden's Zuppa Toscana.

• ¾ stick of butter
• olive oil twice around the pot
• 1 small onion (diced)
• 1 lb. ground Italian Sausage (mild)
• 4 cloves garlic (minced)
• 4-5 leaves of kale (stem removed, rough chop)
• 2 cans Vegetable Broth
• 2 Veggie Broth cans of water
• Ground Thyme, Salt and pepper to taste
• 4-5 potatoes (peeled and chopped)
• Around 1 ½ -2 cups milk (I really like to substitute milk for heavy cream when I can... FAB!!)
• Shredded Parmesan Cheese to garnish


Warm a large pot on the stove, melt butter and olive oil together. Saute sausage and garlic in butter/onion until brown. Add onions and kale, cook until onions clear and kale is wilty. Add the next four ingredients and bring to a boil. Cook until potatoes are done. Add milk. Stir well, let soup warm back up. Garnish with cheese and serve.


Tell me if you try it!

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

"No" makes us better

This morning I opened my email in hopes of finding a response to one of the three queries I've sent out for the book so far. I typically do this this multiple times a day as I am slightly paranoid and impatient. Lo and behold! My first response!!! I will not name the agent, but I was over the moon that I even had a response. Savor the moment... Sip of coffee... Someone that has made a life out of literature has read my proposal. This alone is awesome! Breathe.
I try not to let my imagination go wild. There are so many scenarios that flip through my brain like one of those cute little moving sketches we all do on the sides of our post it notes... We all do those, right? Oh, just me? Never mind.
I boil myself down into three camps of what could happen. 1.) She loves it and wants to sign me immediately! 2.) She likes the idea of where I'm going, but it isn't for her... and here are a few tips to make it better... 3.) The old, copy/paste, form rejection letter that simply says "nope". And the winner is: (drum roll)
NOPE.
I imagine, if you aren't a writer or person that has done the research to know that most every famous writer has gotten tons and tons of those for books that did eventually become huge, you would see me curled in the fetal position on the floor. You can almost hear the body-wracking sobs that permeate the atmosphere as I pour out my sorrow and failure. Pity me! Pity me! Someone get this girl some chocolate, Adele music, and a glass of Pinot Noir, STAT!
Alas, no. I took a deep breath and smiled. Then, I moved it into a new folder in my inbox that I have labeled "query rejections". I'm going to keep every one I get. I may even take Rick Riordan's suggestion and print them for wallpaper in my craft room! "No" makes us better. "No" forces us to grow and improve! Onward to glory! I will live to query again! Or self-pub... that is always an option...

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Writing Is Like Making Potato Soup

Don't laugh! I'm serious! Ok, laugh a little, but it is still true. Let me explain.
Most everyone that has eaten my potato soup loves it. I get lots of requests for the recipe. The problem is, I can tell you the ingredients all day long and your soup will still taste different than mine. There is no recipe, even though the ingredients never change. I do not use measurements. I do everything by sight and feel... I experience the soup. I know, that is weirdly deep for soup, but there you have it. It is in that way that writing is like potato soup.
You see, we can write about the same moment, the same event, but our stories will differ greatly based on our writing styles, what we personally experienced in that moment, and what we noticed. All of the same ingredients are there. There is nothing you would have that I do not... It is just the individuality of the experience, and the knowledge we have going in, that changes the soup. It's a beautiful thing! Embrace your own version of the soup, folks!
That said... here is the closest thing to my potato soup recipe you will ever get without cooking it with me in my kitchen:

Potato Soup
8-10 potatoes, peeled and chopped
3-4 green onions, chopped (discard the roots)
salt, pepper, and Tony Chachere's Creole Seasoning
A stick of butter
All-purpose flour
Milk
1 small block of Velveeta, cut into small cubes

Toss your potatoes and onions into a big pot and just cover them with water. Season the water liberally and boil until your potatoes are soft, but not floury. Add in your butter. Stir until the butter melts. Add in enough milk to make the soup white when stirred. Bring it back to a low boil. While you are waiting, mix together a couple tablespoons of flour and enough milk to make it about the consistency of pancake batter. Once the soup starts bubbling, mix in the flour mixture and stir constantly until everything is smooth and thickening. Pull your pot off of the heat and add in the Velveeta. Stir until that is all melted and smooth, then serve.
Good luck!

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Edits, Reviews, and Finalizing! Oh, My!

All of my proofreaders and reviewers have gotten their copies and notes back to me. I've poured over all of the red slashes and notations. I'm in the process of tweaking what needs tweaked so I can start the real work of pushing the manuscript. This is an exhilarating and scary place!
I have to admit, I was pleasantly surprised by how well the work was received by those who read it. Though typically not readers of my specific genre for pleasure, they each came back with very positive praise! To quote one of them:


"I found myself completely swept away into the story and the exciting world that H.M. Roach creates in this book. Page after page, I found some new part to the story that would make the adventure even more enjoyable. 

The characters are life-like and bring an excitement to the story as you follow them on their quest.
The novel is written with such great detail and imagery. H.M. writes with such a lovely, lyrical flow - colorful, unexpected, and detailed language, that this new world became very clear and bright in my mind." 

- Lisa Weir

I blushed! But, seriously, it was so helpful and eye opening to have another person's perspective... Even in the corrections. Scratch that. Especially with corrections and linguistic consistency! I've had one other dear friend looking at the pieces of work throughout the entirety of my writing, Mrs. Tiffany Robinson. She has been a saint to walk through this with me. Often, she had to smack me around a bit to keep me going on track. Her input and knowledge have been beyond compare. However, she is now very close to the work, in my mind. The fresh eyes of new people who have no emotional involvement with the work are completely different and much needed! If you are writing in hopes of publication, please don't skip this step. You have no idea how important good, trustworthy, hard editors can be! 


And for those of you that just come around to get my recipes: Don't worry! The next recipe will be up soon!

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

An Excerpt from Elhannan

In honor of going from 35 likes to 100 on my author page on facebook, H.M. Roach, here is an excerpt from "Elhannan":

The priest’s cryptic speech does little to comfort Elhannan.  Settling back upon the cold stone floor, he shakes his head.  Racuran is watching him, measuring his responses. 
“Do not be confused or doubt what I say.  You know already what is at work here, though I doubt you realize it.  Your grandfather was a wise man who knew many tales from the beginning of the world and on; though much history is lost to us.  He held more stories within his heart and that book you carry than most of your people will ever hear.  This is what made him the Great Seolta, the head historian and storyteller of all of Froa.”
            The package in the old man’s withering hands is held out, offered to this youth at his feet.  He bears it out as if it is a great burden, a heavy weight of some precious treasure he is loath to part with.  Elhannan’s hands tremble as he receives the thing.  Wrapped in layers of cheesecloth and sealed with Racuran’s personal wax imprint, the rectangular parcel is laid in the gypsy’s lap and slowly opened.  The K’taran’s mouth falls agape and his eyes go wide.  Missing pages to the journal he carries stare back at him. A small note in his mother’s flowing script flutters to the floor.
“I have thought these torn out pages were gone forever.  I have always wondered about them and why…..”

“Elhannan, your mother gave me these the last time you came to visit.  She grew afraid that you might find them among her things one day.  Luraiche worried for you and wanted you to stay safe, but she knew of the prophecy… she knew a day would come that would send you headlong into all the things she feared.  It is a blessing that she is gone from us now, for now is when you are needed.  Read those pages and replace them in your journal.  Your destiny lies inside the words of your grandfather’s hand.”

Monday, July 15, 2013

Respecting the Process... and Cupcakes

I began work on book two of the M'Shar series last night. Undoubtedly this one will take much less time than the first, considering that I am not starting the world from scratch. Here, I am picking up where I left off. All of my maps and people groups and governments, etc. are already laid out and waiting to play their parts. I am simply telling the story now; following the grand outline.
Yes, I admit it. I am an outline writer. I always have been. It keeps my head straight and binds me to the path so I don't chase the ever-appearing rabbit trails. I have an overarching outline that covers the three book stretch I have intended this series to be. I also have a mini-outline for each of the three books. This is my process. "One must respect one's process." - John Jacob Jinglehiemer Schmidt

Now to celebrate the beginning of book two: the ultimate recipe for awesomeness!

Irish Car Bomb Cupcakes

Guinness Chocolate Cupcakes   +   Ganache Filling   +   Bailey's Frosting
1 cup Guinness Stout                      8 oz. semi-sweet      3-4 cups Confectioner's sugar
1 cup butter                                              chocolate       1/2 cup butter (room temp)
3/4 cups unsweet cocoa pwdr.       2/3 c. heavy cream    3-4 T. Bailey's Irish Cream Liqueur*
2 c. flour                                        2 T. butter                
2 c. sugar                                              (room temp)
1 1/12 t. baking soda                     1 - 2 t. Irish Whiskey (I prefer Bushmills)*
3/4 t. salt
2 eggs
2/3 c. sour cream

*These are optional. If you don't use the Bailey's, though, be sure to substitute milk, heavy cream or a combo of the two. You need the liquid.

The Cakes - Preheat your oven to 350 degrees. Plop your most adorable and Irish looking cupcake liners into a 24 cup cupcake tin. On the stove, bring the Stout and cup of butter to a simmer in a heavy saucepan over medium heat. Add in your cocoa and whisk until the mixture is all smooth and deliciously silky looking, then set it to the side and let it cool.
In a separate bowl, whisk four, sugar, baking soda, and 3/4 t. salt to blend. Break out your electric mixer and a large bowl for your eggs and sour cream. Beat them until they love each other... I mean, until they are completely blended. Add in your Stout mixture and beat again, but just until everything is combined. Now add in the flour mixture and stir it all together on a nice, slow speed. Once combined, split up the batter into your cupcake liners, filling them all about 3/4 of the way full. Bake them for 17 minutes, or until a toothpick in the center comes out clean. Cool these cats all the way to room temp on a wire rack.

The Filling - Chop up the chocolate (if you are using bricks or flats and not chips) and toss it into a heat proof bowl. On the stove (or in your microwave), heat the cream until it simmers, then pour it over the chocolate. Let it sit for a minute, then stir it until it is smooth and irresistibly silky. Don't eat it. No. Fingers down. Wait. It's worth it, I promise. Now add in the butter and whiskey and stir until everything is combined. I said no eating! Not yet! Gracious! Patience is a virtue, folks. This is your ganache! You can leave it on your counter to cool or put it in the fridge for a bit if you are super impatient. You only want it to thicken enough to where it can be piped easily.
Here is where is gets fun... Take a melon baller, apple corer, grapefruit knife, or paring knife and cut out the centers of your cooled cupcakes. I like to leave a little of the bottom in place, so I only go about 2/3 of the way down. The best part is the little bits you remove are now free noshing for the chef and helpers! Yummm!
Put all of that lovely ganache into a piping bag or a zip bag with the corner snipped off and will each of the cupcakes to the top.

The Frosting - Whip the butter until it is super light and fluffy. Slowly add in the confectioner's sugar. Sloooooooooowly. Otherwise you get a powder bomb to the face. When the frosting looks thick enough to spread, drizzle in your lovely Bailey's and whip that stuff until it is the super fantastic, luscious, amazing concoction it was meant to be. (If you used too much liquid and it thinned, just beat in another spoon or two of the sugar.)
Frost the cakes and let the gluttony begin!

By the way, you can make these a week or two ahead (sans frosting) and store them, well-wrapped, in your freezer. Good luck with THAT temptation hiding near by!

Friday, July 12, 2013

Book News... and a salad!

I just completed my first phone interview/pitch for my book with a publishing company!!! AHHHHHHH! Happy dance, happy dance, happy dance. Aaaaand, breathe. It may or may not come to anything, but the fact of talking to someone about my book in a professional capacity for the first time was incredibly scary and exhilarating and magnificent! On the reality side of things, it showed me that I really need to tighten up and memorize my pitch. I need to be able, at a moments notice, to give a brief, concise, engaging description of my book and myself as a writer (motivations, intent, etc.). All of the research I have been doing helped, but I still felt a bit aimless as I attempted to throw something together off the cuff. Time to get to work! 

Since the super awesome phone convo was but sweet and put my feet to the fire, I'm going to share two of my favorite salad recipes... One sweet, the other spicy!

SWEET:
Pomegranate - Cranberry Layered Salad

1 bag baby spinach leaves
1 bottle Simply Dressed Pomegranate Salad Dressing  
1 bag of craisins
1 small bag slivered almonds
1 cup of cooked, crumbled bacon

Layer in a large, clear bowl in the order listed. Serve. It will make your tongue jump out of your mouth and smack you on the face. It's that good!!!

SPICY:
Heather's Mexican Layered Salad
1 bag spinach
1 can mexicorn (drained)
1 can black beans (rinsed and drained)
4 chopped green onions
Handful chopped cilantro
Whole bottle chipotle ranch dressing
1 bag Velveeta queso blanco
1 bag Oscar Myer real bacon pieces
Add each of the ingredients to the bowl in the order in which they are listed and prepare for a flavor explosion! Oh, and don't be afraid to tweak this to your own tastes! You can substitute anything you like, really. I've used avocado and lime juice instead of green onions and cilantro and it was delicious too. 
If you try either of these, or you have a comment or advice about the whole book thing, don't be afraid to leave me a comment below! I love hearing from all of you guys! 

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Baby Steps

Now that the work on Book One is pretty much complete, I'm turning my eyes to publishing. I am pretty sure I do not want to travel the self-publishing road. Major kudos for those of you out there that do that and achieve success, but I do not want the weight of my novel's rise and fall to land on these shoulders. I have really cruddy upper body strength, after all.
I am also moderately sure that I don't want to shoot for a big publisher, simply because I don't want to loose all creative control on my baby... I mean, my book. Yeah, book. Now a living thing I gave birth to after untold pain, struggle and labor... wait... Um, anyway. I am kind of uncomfortable with the thought that a person or group of persons, no matter how experienced or talented, would decide something as imperative as my cover art. That is the face of my ba... book. I want the final say in that. But, I do need help. Lots and lots of help.
My amazing cousin, Hope Collier, is also an author. If you haven't checked out any of her stuff, you really should. She's being like a literary guardian angel of late. From pointing me in the right direction for info, to answering my bazillion questions, she is a resource beyond compare. After getting a particularly helpful bit of advice from her, I began looking into some of the small-house publishers, or Indie-publishing if you like. Since my series, and more importantly this first novel, Elhannan, kind of dances on the line of YA fantasy and just straight up fantasy fiction, I have to be sure that the publishers I send queries out to will actually be interested in my genre/genres. Research! Eliminate! (Wow, I sound like a Dalek!) I also have to come up with a query letter (scary!) and a book proposal in case any of the folks I send a query to are interested in taking the next step with me. (Terrifying!)
Internet search how to write a query letter. Done. Calm myself down, take notes, start thinking on the process. Internet search how to write a book proposal. Wade into the fray and find the site I am most comfortable with. Start reading, taking notes, and... What is that?! Author bio? NOOOOOO! I have to talk about me? But, why? Have you ever been published? Not yet, unless you count that poem in 5th grade. Educational Achievements that will lend credibility to your writing as specifically regards to the subject matter. Um, no. Writer's Associations and/or Guilds you are a member of... This could work. Research!
Wish me luck. This is going to be a very long journey.

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Elhannan's Completion!

It is finished!!! I can breathe that enormous sigh of relief at long last. M'Shar Series: Book One, Elhannan is ready for its final proofing and then on to the first timid steps into the publishing world. Oh, and the writing of Book Two, Mashara... and then Book Three... Um, maybe its not quite relief breathing time yet after all.
In any case, I am going to celebrate somehow tonight.

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

My Shepard's Pie

Anyone who knows me knows I absolutely LOVE to cook. I recently asked my facebook-y pals which of my recipes they'd like to have and I was surprised with the response I received! So, my mind starts working. If I'm sharing all these recipes... why not share them here too? Not all the time, of course... but, book-ish folk must grub as well and this is my blog and I like to cook and, and, and... gosh, stop being so judgmental! (*MEEP*) Anyway, let's start out with the first requested recipe. It's one of my absolute favorites!

My "Shepard's Pie"
(It's in quotes because it's not exactly traditional... and probably more of a cottage pie.)

2 lbs. ground beef (or lamb if you can)
T. oil for the pan
salt & pepper to taste
1 medium onion, diced
1 small bag of matchstick carrots
1 small bag frozen peas
Palm full of minced fresh thyme (or if you don't have fresh, use a teaspoon of dried)
Heaping palm full of flour (I use all-purpose)
2 cups beef broth
1 small can tomato paste
1 cup Guinness Stout
Mashed Potatoes (I make mine with butter and a little cream)
2 cups sharp cheddar, shredded

Tools: 1 large pan, 1 very large casserole dish

Preheat your oven to 425 degrees F. Warm a large pan over medium high heat. Add meat to pan, season with salt & pepper and cook until brown. Remove your meat from the pan and pour your onion in. Cook the onion until it is clear and golden and lovely. Add your herbs and all of your veggies. Just toss them around in there until they are nicely coated with all of the yumminess from the pan. Now take that palm full of flour I mentioned up in the list and sprinkle it into the pan over the veggies. Stir it all up really well and let it cook for 1 - 2 minutes. This is the step that will make your sauce thicken later. Ohhh, honey child, this is where things start getting good! Add in your beef broth, tomato paste, and the Guinness Stout. Yes! Oh, the smell! Heaven! (Plus, you now have that little extra leftover stout in the bottle that needs a home. I have a few ideas for that.) Bring all that fabulousness to a boil, scraping the bottom of the pan occasionally so all the flavors can mingle nicely. Add your meat back into the pan, reduce the heat to low and simmer, uncovered, for 20-25 minutes or until the sauce thickens and reduces a bit. Taste it and add more salt and pepper if it needs it. (Do not be afraid of salt. It is your friend. Seriously. Forget your heart doc and listen to your mouth.)
Pour the beef mixture into your casserole dish, top it with your mashed potatoes, and sprinkle the cheddar all over the top of that. Try not to eat it yet. I mean it. Stop it and pull your fingers out of those taters! (You can lick the bowls later.) Bake it in the oven for 10-12 minutes... just until the sauce is bubbly. Now switch the oven to a high broil for about 2 minutes (watch it like a hawk) and as soon as the cheese is melty and gooey, you are ready to serve!

I hope you enjoy this dish. Let me know if you try it!

Saturday, July 6, 2013

Fear

You know that feeling when you think that you've lost something irreplaceable? The cold tingle that seizes your spine, the sick twist in your stomach as your heart begins to thump out a thundering off kilter anti-rhythm in your chest? Yeah. That. 
I experienced that a few days ago when I thought that I had utterly lost the final two chapters of "Elhannan", the first book in my series. I've been working on for around 8 years now. Granted, most of that time has been spent in world building, but the writing itself has been proofed and changed and rewritten at least four times. That is a lot of work to have just disappear. Deep breath. Don't panic. 
I knew that even though the e file was gone, there would still be the proofed printouts somewhere. There would be, right? Um, no. 
However, all is not lost. I always write out my original work with pen and paper. There is just something more natural and flowing about it. So, here I am... Not exactly at square one... But back to work nonetheless. I'll be more careful this time.

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

My Original Idea

Hello and welcome to my blog.

I am saying this mostly to myself. This post is literally my original thought to be placed out there in the blog-o-sphere. My world being created right here on this page for anyone to stumble upon and enter into and respond to and put their own stamp upon. But right now, it is perfect. Pristine. Quiet. Here in the origin is the calm before the storm that I both hope for and fear to come. It is begun. It is.

The purpose of this blog will be to grow myself and others in our writing journey as I promote my own fiction series and travel the murky and landmine filled roads of publishing. My first book is complete... mostly. Now comes the truly hard part. Kicking my baby out of the nest and seeing if and where she'll fly.

So, welcome. Join me on this road. Let's see if we can traverse the path with little to no exploding.